I've gone my entire life worrying about what others think of me. As a teen, I wanted to be popular so bad, so I altered myself to be like girls I wanted to be like, in the name of being accepted. When I was 14, I was preparing to get braces. I went to the dentist to get the rest of my baby teeth pulled and he pulled the wrong tooth!!! Can you believe that ish???
I learned at an early age how to deal with self image. It was almost as though nobody noticed though, or rather they just didn't ask. All they know is, I had a tooth one day and next day, I didn't. Contrary to what I thought, nobody teased me. I still fell into the popular crowd but I always altered myself to be accepted
As an adult, I learned that having too many friends can sometimes be toxic. I wanted friends in my adult life to accept me, when all I needed to do is be myself. I wanted so badly to be accepted by someone that was so selfishly my friend and I later learned that she would change me. For better and for worse. No, not the way that marriage should be but I became cold, paranoid, distrusting.
Instead of being who I was, I continued to change myself to accepted by others. The day I changed my perspective was the day truly became who I am. It was a long road, almost 10 years in the making and I feel like I'm in great company that truly accepts me for who I truly am.
Who are you not to be yourself?
I decided when I turned 30 that this was a new era in my life. I'm going to live for myself, (and my boys, of course) not letting anyone determine my mood. That's why my word of the month is UNAPOLOGETIC!!! In everything I do, I will be unapologetic.
Who am I?
A mother*friend*daughter*sister*entrepreneur*blogger*fashionista*peaceful*happy*beautiful*kind*sometimes unemotional*UNAPOLOGETIC!!!!
What words best describe you? Take some time to think about it and let me know down below. Let's all be great this month. Until next time...